March 10, 2018
March 9, 2018
Happy ?
What makes you happy ?
Who makes you happy ?
Those questions were lingering my head over and over until the beautiful stranger told me, "be thankful for all little things you have now. You will never know what will come to night or tomorrow. by doing it you will be happy".
Who makes you happy ?
Those questions were lingering my head over and over until the beautiful stranger told me, "be thankful for all little things you have now. You will never know what will come to night or tomorrow. by doing it you will be happy".
February 27, 2018
Comfort Words
Another episodes when a stranger can understand my point of view and kinda telling me that it was not my fault by saying "he was not ready" for the second time.
Another comfort feeling was being offered to me by a beautiful stranger ..
Another comfort feeling was being offered to me by a beautiful stranger ..
February 25, 2018
A Beautiful Stranger
Dia, yang dulu gue tau namanya hanya dari group di sosial media yang gue ikuti ..
Dia, yang selalu komen-komen lucu atas postingan di group itu ..
Dia, yang kemudian gue add untuk jadi temen gue di suatu sosial media ..
Dia, yang akhirnya kadang-kadang jadi temen ngobrol sebelum tidur ..
Dia, yang selalu menyapa gue dengan kata "Eh.." dan gue enjoy dengan sebutan itu ..
Dia, yang bisa sangat mengerti keadaan gue.. Karena dia sudah mengalaminya lebih dulu..
I wanna keep it that way, I don't want to know more about him and else ..
I love the way it is now, a beautiful person with all he had.
A beautiful stranger that comfort me ..
Dia, yang selalu komen-komen lucu atas postingan di group itu ..
Dia, yang kemudian gue add untuk jadi temen gue di suatu sosial media ..
Dia, yang akhirnya kadang-kadang jadi temen ngobrol sebelum tidur ..
Dia, yang selalu menyapa gue dengan kata "Eh.." dan gue enjoy dengan sebutan itu ..
Dia, yang bisa sangat mengerti keadaan gue.. Karena dia sudah mengalaminya lebih dulu..
I wanna keep it that way, I don't want to know more about him and else ..
I love the way it is now, a beautiful person with all he had.
A beautiful stranger that comfort me ..
February 6, 2018
Accepting.
Life is what we make it
It cares not what we do
No matter how we fake it
it always sees right through
If you try and lead it
It pushes from behind
If you try and read it
It soon will make you blind
Jut let it free take you
Enjoy life's carefree ride
And know it won't forsake you
If you walk right by its side ..... Life Happens ~ Jim Ellis.
It cares not what we do
No matter how we fake it
it always sees right through
If you try and lead it
It pushes from behind
If you try and read it
It soon will make you blind
Jut let it free take you
Enjoy life's carefree ride
And know it won't forsake you
If you walk right by its side ..... Life Happens ~ Jim Ellis.
May 19, 2017
💔
Bayangan itu semakin nyata, senyata dengan keadaan bahwa aku belum bisa melupakan kamu. Cerita baru datang silih berganti, tapi kemudian semua hilang dan kamu hadir lagi..
Apakah karena dulu aku hanya bisa pasrah menerima untuk membuat kamu bahagia ?
Apakah karena penjelasan yang menjadi hak ku tidak pernah kamu berikan ?
I miss you; I need you; I love you.. Still ❤
Apakah karena dulu aku hanya bisa pasrah menerima untuk membuat kamu bahagia ?
Apakah karena penjelasan yang menjadi hak ku tidak pernah kamu berikan ?
I miss you; I need you; I love you.. Still ❤
June 10, 2016
On my way to 40
"Thank you GOD" .. itu kalimat pertama yang keluar dari mulut gue ..
Terima kasih untuk cinta, ujian, keluarga, hadiah, teman, peringatan, tawa, air mata ..
Terima kasih untuk semuanya ..
Gak percaya tapi ini yang terjadi, gue berjalan ke arah "life begin at 40" things
Is it life begin at 40 ? .. Don't know what it means but it open up my eyes that I have a chance for another year...
Again, thank you GOD ..
Terima kasih untuk cinta, ujian, keluarga, hadiah, teman, peringatan, tawa, air mata ..
Terima kasih untuk semuanya ..
Gak percaya tapi ini yang terjadi, gue berjalan ke arah "life begin at 40" things
Is it life begin at 40 ? .. Don't know what it means but it open up my eyes that I have a chance for another year...
Again, thank you GOD ..
March 31, 2016
Bukan Pembelaan.. It's Just Me ..
Dapet link dibawah ini dari temen, Gak tau maksudnya apa, tapi di akhir artikel ini agak sedikit meyakinkan gue bahwa apapun yang terjadi ama diri gue gak perlu gue khawatirkan, sedikit memberikan "dukungan" buat gue untuk keep moving on ..
http://magdalene.co/news-736-keep-calm-you%E2%80%99re-not-expiring.html
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By : Abrina Nurmayanti |
Several weeks before turning 25, I was seriously anxious and a little depressed because I felt like I hadn’t done anything significant in my life.
In my early twenties, I made plans of things I must do before reaching 25. The list contained things typical of a 20-something Indonesian girl, including continuing my graduate studies abroad or getting married, or, if I am lucky, both.
Several weeks into being a 25-year-old woman, my anxiety worsened. Apparently most of my friends had done whatever I planned earlier. Many of them received scholarships that enabled them to continue their graduate studies either back in Indonesia or overseas. Several found their significant others and got married, and a few got pregnant. One or two had become mothers.
I know these are other people’s lives, but they affected me significantly. I live and work overseas and out of nowhere, people I know including my friends, told me not to stay abroad alone too long. They told me to fly back to Indonesia and to find a partner back home. This made me feel guilty for something that didn’t even harm anyone.
Growing up in a country where marriage is a cultural default, I could not stop worrying about my failure in realizing my plans. I kept looking at the “normal” lives of Indonesian women that seemed a cut above me and I compared their lives with mine. I could not even start my Master’s program, let alone getting married. I felt like I was left behind, a total failure whose expiration date was fast approaching. And I ended up harming myself psychologically.
At some point in that emotionally unstable period, I looked back to my university years. When I was still pursuing my Bachelor’s Degree, I would kill to be financially independent. It all started when I felt like a burden to my parents and found it hard to ask them for money every month. This is my life and why do I ask others to fund it?
Some of my friends told me that it’s parents’ duty to fulfill our needs and that I didn’t need to feel bad about it. But I never thought like that. I felt like a 20 year-old brat, a pain in the ass, a parasite. I didn’t want to be a parasite whose life depends on others. In addition, I have a lovely, smart and talented little sister who deserves a much better quality of education and life than me. I couldn’t be that selfish, so I thought my parents should spare their time and money for her.
Many people think that I decided to stay abroad to work because it’s posh, fun and free here, but what do they know? Once I received my Bachelor’s degree, my dad told me to apply for graduate school. But I refused his idea since it didn’t go with my #1 plan. I decided to work abroad, far away from home. Thankfully, my parents supported my decision.
In my situation, getting married or pursuing a Master’s degree immediately after graduation wouldn’t help me become financially independent. This opened my eyes and made me realize that there is always a reason behind someone’s decisions, and that what others perceive about their decisions doesn’t even matter. Everyone has different responsibilities in life, and it’s only normal that we venture into different paths.
Today, as a 25-year-old Indonesian woman who will turn 26 in a few months, I feel blessed to be independent. Not every Indonesian woman, or even man, has the privilege to taste the freedom of life I have lived.
To those Indonesian women out there who feel left behind, please stop thinking that you’re approaching your expiration date. I am not telling you to stay chill and settle for a mediocre life, but, it is totally okay to feel not okay once in a while, as long as we are not drowned in bitterness way too long.
We are lucky enough to have this much time so that we can understand ourselves better. It is crucial to cherish whatever life throws at our face and taste it right away with our own tongue. Believe in ourselves! Not in a way of giving a fudge-you-all attitude, but in a way that enables to support ourselves, with integrity and courageously and responsibly in charge of our own lives.
What other people do isn’t always the “right” thing to do for us. If we find our other half and are psychologically, physically and financially ready to get married, then why not? If we have the money to continue our studies, or if we are awarded a scholarship, then, by all means, chase our dreams. If we have all the time and money to spend, we could travel the world or do anything we love. And if we want to stay focus on our career, that’s not a problem at all.
It is our life, our goals, our own portion and version of success.
http://magdalene.co/news-736-keep-calm-you%E2%80%99re-not-expiring.html
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Keep Calm, You’re Not Expiring
Tuesday, 22 March 2016 - 11:17:02 WIBBy : Abrina Nurmayanti |
Several weeks before turning 25, I was seriously anxious and a little depressed because I felt like I hadn’t done anything significant in my life.
In my early twenties, I made plans of things I must do before reaching 25. The list contained things typical of a 20-something Indonesian girl, including continuing my graduate studies abroad or getting married, or, if I am lucky, both.
Several weeks into being a 25-year-old woman, my anxiety worsened. Apparently most of my friends had done whatever I planned earlier. Many of them received scholarships that enabled them to continue their graduate studies either back in Indonesia or overseas. Several found their significant others and got married, and a few got pregnant. One or two had become mothers.
I know these are other people’s lives, but they affected me significantly. I live and work overseas and out of nowhere, people I know including my friends, told me not to stay abroad alone too long. They told me to fly back to Indonesia and to find a partner back home. This made me feel guilty for something that didn’t even harm anyone.
Growing up in a country where marriage is a cultural default, I could not stop worrying about my failure in realizing my plans. I kept looking at the “normal” lives of Indonesian women that seemed a cut above me and I compared their lives with mine. I could not even start my Master’s program, let alone getting married. I felt like I was left behind, a total failure whose expiration date was fast approaching. And I ended up harming myself psychologically.
At some point in that emotionally unstable period, I looked back to my university years. When I was still pursuing my Bachelor’s Degree, I would kill to be financially independent. It all started when I felt like a burden to my parents and found it hard to ask them for money every month. This is my life and why do I ask others to fund it?
Some of my friends told me that it’s parents’ duty to fulfill our needs and that I didn’t need to feel bad about it. But I never thought like that. I felt like a 20 year-old brat, a pain in the ass, a parasite. I didn’t want to be a parasite whose life depends on others. In addition, I have a lovely, smart and talented little sister who deserves a much better quality of education and life than me. I couldn’t be that selfish, so I thought my parents should spare their time and money for her.
Many people think that I decided to stay abroad to work because it’s posh, fun and free here, but what do they know? Once I received my Bachelor’s degree, my dad told me to apply for graduate school. But I refused his idea since it didn’t go with my #1 plan. I decided to work abroad, far away from home. Thankfully, my parents supported my decision.
In my situation, getting married or pursuing a Master’s degree immediately after graduation wouldn’t help me become financially independent. This opened my eyes and made me realize that there is always a reason behind someone’s decisions, and that what others perceive about their decisions doesn’t even matter. Everyone has different responsibilities in life, and it’s only normal that we venture into different paths.
Today, as a 25-year-old Indonesian woman who will turn 26 in a few months, I feel blessed to be independent. Not every Indonesian woman, or even man, has the privilege to taste the freedom of life I have lived.
To those Indonesian women out there who feel left behind, please stop thinking that you’re approaching your expiration date. I am not telling you to stay chill and settle for a mediocre life, but, it is totally okay to feel not okay once in a while, as long as we are not drowned in bitterness way too long.
We are lucky enough to have this much time so that we can understand ourselves better. It is crucial to cherish whatever life throws at our face and taste it right away with our own tongue. Believe in ourselves! Not in a way of giving a fudge-you-all attitude, but in a way that enables to support ourselves, with integrity and courageously and responsibly in charge of our own lives.
What other people do isn’t always the “right” thing to do for us. If we find our other half and are psychologically, physically and financially ready to get married, then why not? If we have the money to continue our studies, or if we are awarded a scholarship, then, by all means, chase our dreams. If we have all the time and money to spend, we could travel the world or do anything we love. And if we want to stay focus on our career, that’s not a problem at all.
It is our life, our goals, our own portion and version of success.
Abrina Nurmayanti is a Tarantino enthusiast, lover of food, good music, kindness, and weird stuff. People who can't accept differences perplexes her.
December 31, 2015
End of 2015
31 Juli 2015 ...
Ini hari terakhir di tahun 2015..
Gue gak banyak nulis tahun ini, tapi banyak sekali yang terjadi
- pengalaman pekerjaan baru
- on - off ama temen deket yang sampe saat ini gue gak tau kabarnya
- diketemuin ama brondong yang bikin gue agak lupa ama kenyataan
- keributan di keluarga gue yang gak selesai-selesai
- ke-khawatiran gue ama hidup gue yang menurut gue stuck gini aja
- rencana traveling gue yang gugur satu per satu karena ... *sigh
Yang pasti rasa syukur itu masih ada, pekerjaan, rumah, makanan, teman-teman yang memilih untuk tetap ada, kesehatan, rasa percaya dari orang lain dan ketika memikirkan bahwa gue masih bisa mencukupi keluarga ini.
Terima kasih TUHAN, untuk tahun 2015 dan kesempatan untuk tahun 2016 yang Kau anugerahkan bagi kami semua ...
Ini hari terakhir di tahun 2015..
Gue gak banyak nulis tahun ini, tapi banyak sekali yang terjadi
- pengalaman pekerjaan baru
- on - off ama temen deket yang sampe saat ini gue gak tau kabarnya
- diketemuin ama brondong yang bikin gue agak lupa ama kenyataan
- keributan di keluarga gue yang gak selesai-selesai
- ke-khawatiran gue ama hidup gue yang menurut gue stuck gini aja
- rencana traveling gue yang gugur satu per satu karena ... *sigh
Yang pasti rasa syukur itu masih ada, pekerjaan, rumah, makanan, teman-teman yang memilih untuk tetap ada, kesehatan, rasa percaya dari orang lain dan ketika memikirkan bahwa gue masih bisa mencukupi keluarga ini.
Terima kasih TUHAN, untuk tahun 2015 dan kesempatan untuk tahun 2016 yang Kau anugerahkan bagi kami semua ...
November 17, 2015
Seperti Nyata
Melihat sinetron ini, mendengar kata-kata yang di ucapkan..
Kenapa gue ngerasa kata-kata itu ditujukan ke gue ? ...
Kenapa gue ikutan ngerasa ada suatu kehangatan di dada ini saat dia mengatakan itu semua ? ..
Iya, itu semua adalah proses untuk menuju suatu keindahan pada waktunya ...
Iya, Itu cuma sinetron, tapi kok terasa nyata ya ...
Kenapa gue ngerasa kata-kata itu ditujukan ke gue ? ...
Kenapa gue ikutan ngerasa ada suatu kehangatan di dada ini saat dia mengatakan itu semua ? ..
Iya, itu semua adalah proses untuk menuju suatu keindahan pada waktunya ...
Iya, Itu cuma sinetron, tapi kok terasa nyata ya ...
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