Thanks Raj ..

Sejak memutuskan untuk benar-benar lepas dari laki-laki hidup gue bener-bener flat !!!, dah kayak dikasih obat bius ber-ampul2 ampe gue gak bisa merasakan apa-apa lagi. Until last night, badan gue yang memberitahu kalo gue harus berhenti, berhenti untuk melakukan hal-hal konyol dan benar-benar mengatur hidup gue.

Thanks God, gue gak nyesel ama keputusan yang gue ambil beberapa hari yang lalu..

Last night ...
Raj : Hi babe.. how are you, sorry I've been busy with stuff..
Me : Cool Raj, I'm ok.. you ?
Raj : Me too.. So, new news about this guy ?
Me : I gave up, I let it go for good .. :)
Raj : What ? why ? is it because you love me more than him.. ? .. Hahahaha, kidding babe..
Me : Hahahaa.... you fool..
Raj : So ?.. tell me !, I don't have to come to skype right ?..
Me : Nooo.. I'm not in the mood to see you.. hahahaaa...
Raj : Hahahaaa... crazy girl..
Me : I just can't live like this Raj, I still love him, but I know he's not into me and I know my line..
Raj : Common.. you're the one who told me "in the name of love, do what your heart tells you".. and now ?
Me : I'm tired Raj.. and remember, I turn 36 this year. Not my time to "play" around, waiting for a shadow..
Raj : Let me ask you,.. answer it with you heart.. Do you love him ?
Me : I do..
Raj : NO !!!... tell me the truth saree, DO YOU LOVE HIM ??
Me : I do Raj !!.. what is it with you and this question ?
Raj : Then why did you give up ?.. This is not you saree !
Me : I know, things change man. Guess I loose the real me..
Raj : And now, do you satisfy with your decision ?
Me : It sounds boring but, I still believe that you don't have to be with that person just because you love them and I do realize that no matter how hard I try, I would never able to get him as mine, there's a big wall Raj, a wall made of glass..
Raj : My God, you know it's crab saree.. what his number, I call him now !
Me : Hahahaaa.... I deleted all things about him, I cannot reach him anymore, and when I still had his number, I was never able to reach him either. So what's the use of keeping it ?
Raj : Oh dear.. I can only hug you from here... Surely there will come your moment. Don't be sad.. ok..
Me : Ok Raj.. thank you ..

Percakapan singkat dengan seorang teman dekat, teman yang tidak pernah gue temui secara langsung tapi sepertinya lebih bisa mengerti atas semua yang terjadi dengan hidup gue..